Polyanna Lives!!!

I have so much inside of me right now, that it is so hard to write!!!I can't decide what to write about!!!
I want ot write about it all!! But, when I think I know what to write about, something else comes flowing by!!!
This is, of course, a result of what happens when it is your turn to be the worlds "outhouse".
Have you ever felt like the whole world is shitting on you at the same time? It is NOT a pretty thing!!!
Maybe that is why I am having a hard time writing!!! It is really hard to see through all that murky shit!!!
First there is the vehicle thing, broke for a year, finally got fixrd, got towed! Lost the title, storage fees acummilating, lots of red tape!!!
Then there is the relationship thing, IT SUCKS!!!!
Then there is the fact that Dedy is moving away! That is like part of me leaving!!!! REALLY!!! Dedy is the other part of my brain!!! And she is going to be farther away!!! The way my life is, she might as well be moving to Siberia!!!
Speaking of Siberia, it seems like all the people I would most like to be around might as well be there!!!
In the past three years I have been blessed with reconnecting with 2 friends who I havn't seen in more than 30 years!!! I am so greatful to have found them, and I don't want to sound like I don't treasure this, but it is really tortureous to have them back in my life, and not be able to have some one on one with them!!!
They both live in different states, one in Lebonon, MO., and the other lives in Nashville, TN., Me, I live in CA., so yes it seems like they are another world away! On the bright side, at least I know they are still with me!!! Alive and well! THANK YOU GOD!!!!
There are some people who you meet and, never seem to forget!!
I just realized that the two friends I have been taling about
share the distinction of being my first "Best Friend".
Only in different catagories.
Denise, is the very first female "Best Friend" and Jack is my very first male "Best Friend", actually, he IS the best male friend I have ever had. I really can't tell you why, and I know this sounds crazy, but for some reason I feel like I have known Jack forever, but the truth is, I knew him for only a few months, (if that long),
when we were teenagers, but when I talk to him it is like the time we have missed together is non-existent! I guess I would say it just feels comfortable to talk with Jack!
I know that someday I will see both Jack and Denise, but untill then, I will thank God every day for bringing them both back into my life.
THANK YOU GOD!!!!

YES!!! Polyanna Lives!!!! (me, according to my aunty!!!)
Who, by the way, told me to hang on to that attitude, so Hell yes!, I am proud to be a "Polyanna", if that is what you want to call it. I call it "just being ME!!!"!!!!! Life is too short to waste even a second on negitivity!!! I know that we have to deal with shitty things in life, but, hey!, DEAL with it and GET OVER IT!!!!! MOVE ON!!! This has always worked for me!, either that or my Angels have been working overtime!!!!

I am not sure if I will post before Thanksgiving or not, so I would like to wish all who venture here, a very Happy Thanksgiving, make it fun, make it happy, but most of all make it memorable!!!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!!