Contemplation

CONTEMPLATION

Have you ever tried to think of the name of a song, while listening to a completly different song. It is almost impossible!!!! It takes high concentration!!!! And even that sometimes fails!!!
Then, as soon as the song you are listening to is over, you remember the name of the one you couldn't think of!!!!

It is kind of like trying to contemplate your next direction in life, while living in a city.... Noisy, over crowded, Way Too Much HUMANITY!!!!
And then there is the ever present distractions that are a part of our everyday lives!!!

Sometimes I wish I could just sit on the moon, and contemplate, my life, my direction, and ALL that i see below......

However....
I DO have a place I love to go to just BE.
It is in the foothills.
This place I visit is comfortable, warm, and peaceful!!!!!!!
This place I go to belongs to a Very SPECIAL person in my life.
who lives on a hill in Mountain Ranch.

Thank You My Friend....
for being my Moon!!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO........Lexie

FORWARD MOVEMENT!!!!

Well, I finally decided it is time to resurect this neglected progect!
It has been a little over a year now since I have been alone with-out Jim.
He is still in my heart, and in my thoughts everyday! I recently heard a song that expresses some of what I feel deep inside of me.
The first time I listened to it I was pretty much sobbing!!!!!

The name of the song is:"When I Look To The Sky", it is sang by a group called 'Train'....
They also sing my most recent "integrel" song,(a song of growth for me),
The name of it is "Drops Of Jupiter"
I drive my kids crazy with the number of times in a row they must hear this song while driving in the car!!! But, they know me, and how much I love music! And YES....
I DO let them play thier stuff too! I even like some of it!!!

It has been a year of ups, and downs, forward movement and setbacks!
It has been a year of hard realiziations, and revelations.
I have re-evaluated ALOT, relationships, opinions, goals, priorities, ect.
Some things, and people will just never change, and I have learned that I must accept those things, and people as they are, or be willing to let them go.

I have a hard time leaving the people in my life behind, especially those who in some way or another left an imprint on my heart. For me it is like losing a part of my SELF.

But on the other hand, moving forward sometimes is impossible without lightening our "load"

Life is offering new oppritunities, and experiances for learning, and growing, and yes....

FORWARD MOVEMENT!!!!!
Thanks for traveling next to me GOD!!!!